I was having an existential crisis this morning. I have been really struggling with my job and in general what I do for a living. I like it. I think I like it but I just don't know anymore actually. I'm finding I am sick of the BS associated with what I do. There's far more governmental influence currently and coming down the pike (pipe?) than when I first started. More (and just like everywhere I'm sure) I'm getting asked to do more on less. And I feel bad because it really impacts employees and at my employer MANY of our employees earn 12 - 18 bucks an hour. We then annually take away 1400 of that in medical benefits alone. And my bigger boss is now talking more deep benefit cuts. It kills me because I have at least 5 people right now who I know for certain have no ins because they can't afford it. To me that's wrong. (And I can also admit I don't like paying so much for my benefits and would hate to see my benefits get slashed). I was feeling like this, though, even before I came to my new job. So much more Bullshit. So much less good stuff.
So I've been considering going back to school. I don't know if I'll do it. I know I've talked about it before. UNT has a library sciences program which only runs about 12k for the tuition. I think I could do it. I think it might be what I'm looking for. According to UNT's site, youth librarians are in demand. God that would combine my 2 favorite things. My biggest concern, though: money. I'll earn less than I earn now. That kind of stresses me out since it is just me. It also stresses me out to think about being subject to the whims of the government. In Seattle, there were regularly furlough days where the libraries were closed. They don't get paid for those days off. (Maybe they use vacay I suppose). I think we've had them here too. So I think I'll take a baby step and make an appt to go see a graduate admissions counselor and go from there. Well that and find out about GRE/GMAT testing.