Friday, December 30, 2011
My second epiphany of today was what my boss was irrationally angry about. I asked payroll to do a refund of benefits for someone today. She flipped out because of the tax implications since the refund will count as part of the first payroll of 2012 and the deduction was taken out in 2011. "As the benefits manager I should think of these things..." After I thought about it more I realized if the PAYROLL manager didn't care why the hell was she freaking out? Since the PAYROLL manager has no issue, she's got no place to be pissed off.
Before I quit in a fit of wrath, I may try to talk to the new CEO. The CFO couldn't rein her in maybe the new CEO can. My entire department hates her. The payroll manager is on the verge of quitting due to her. Before I started at least 3 other people quit due to her. And let's not forget the African American woman she fired. After only giving her less than 1 week to improve on her "improvement plan."
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Meal Planning. I make this goal periodically. Usually after I realize how much take out I'm eating. I eat a lot of take out. Too much take out. I'm pretty good about setting up food for the week for lunches but somehow not dinners.
Keep my 4.0 GPA in grad school. With under grad I never had a chance. Well maybe I had a chance, but since I took Speech the first semester of my first year I never really had a chance. Somehow now, though, I've got one. Three semesters in and I have a 4.0. I have 3 classes in the spring and one in the summer. I know in reality it doesn't mean anything really, but now that I'm almost there I want it.
I would add find a new job but that was a goal for 2011 and didn't pan out. That's kind of always an ongoing goal. Without babbling too much about something that hasn't changed, I hate my job. I want a new job. Maybe once I have my MLIS I can get the new job easier. I hope. The thought of being at the current job for another year makes me want to cry. A LOT. Although there is a glimmer of hope (which keeps getting pushed back) in that we're merging with another company. I keep hoping evil boss will be let go to keep the hr person from the new company.
Friday, October 14, 2011
I used to be really good at counting my blessings. Well I never called it that, but that's the gist of it. Thinking positively and considering all the good things that are going on in my life. I know I'll be able to do it again and I know I'll get back to volunteering again. And I'm glad to be in grad school, even though I'm terrified I won't be able to make a decent enough living at being a librarian. (Although I'm now considering looking into being a corporate librarian. I think that would be interesting for awhile.) I know I'm on the path to good things. It is just hard to see that sometimes.
Friday, October 07, 2011
According to Cancer.gov, the most common cancer is prostate cancer. Did anyone know that? They estimate that there will be 221,130 new cases of lung cancer and 156,940 estimated deaths from lung cancer. Yes breast cancer is the 2nd most frequent cancer around. (More estimated new cases than lung), but only an estimated 39000 people will die from it. I won't say that breast cancer isn't significant, obviously it is. But with cancers that are a guaranteed death sentence, maybe we should start funneling some of that pink money along to other cancers.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Parks & Recreation. I don't know if I've posted here about my love of this show. I love the character of Leslie Knope. I want to BE Leslie Knope. I don't know that I have ever felt as passionate and inspired and excited about my job as she is. She's fearless in her pursuit of greatness for her Parks Department and I just find her so amazing. I also wish I could be as positive as she is and as able to compliment people the way she does. She is probably my favorite character on TV right now and I will be super sad when the show gets cancelled. (At some point way way way in the future).
Sons of Anarchy: It seems odd that I like this show. It seems like a show I wouldn't like. But I weirdly love it. It's violent. It's brutal. It does feature some very attractive eye candy so that helps with the brutality part. This season they're getting in deep with some even worse dudes than usual so it could be interesting. Last season I kept watching because they were in "Ireland" and the accents alone kept me going.
Raising Hope: Another show I love. The family is so caring of each other and funny. And they're trying so hard to do things right for the baby that was thrust upon them. They really care about each other and I think that isn't always the feeling you get with television shows. Plus they've got the cutest baby on television bar none.
The New Girl: Michelle liked this show. I'm on the fence. I liked the boys on the show but find Zooey whateverherlastnameis to be too much. It was like she was trying too hard. But it is on between Glee and Raising Hope and I watch both of those so I'll end up watching it until it gets cancelled.
Two Broke Girls: Freaking hysterical. I thought it was sharp and well written. It may have been a little over the top in terms of innuendo, but that's okay. I do find that I'm completely distracted by Max's boobs in her uniform. They're massive.
Revenge: By far the best show I've seen in a long time. It was so well thought out. I am sucked in and completely excited to watch next week! Emily Van Camp has such a girl next door vibe (probably due to Everwood) that you can't believe she's plotting against these Hamptonites. It is delicious and I don't use that word lightly. I hope it goes on for a long time, BUT has an end in place so it doesn't drag on forever and ever. I've already watched the pilot twice.
Friday, September 02, 2011
Eating out - Fine depending on the quality of the restaurant. Dennys - no problem. Ruths Chris steak house or fancier - weird.
Movies - Fine alone
Theater - Depends. Musicals are okay but like the symphony no. (No logic there).
Drinking in a bar - Not so much alone. I think that's sad.
Attend a sporting event - iffy. I think they're more fun when you're there with other people. But I've done it alone and it wasn't a big deal.
Going to a casino - Since I already think going to the Indian casinos are a little bit sad, I think going alone is super sad.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
This year BlogHer was in San Diego. Since it has been over 100 degrees here forevfuckingever that was the nicest thing possible. When I landed in San Diego and stepped out at the airport I felt a wave of nostalgia. The air smelled like the ocean. (Not that Camarillo smelled like the ocean but it was very close to the ocean). It made me miss California. And Seattle. And anyplace that isn't Texas, but that's another story.
I really liked hanging out with Michelle, Katey, Laura, Amy, Leslie and Karla. It is good to hang out with people, some of whom I know and some of whom were new to me. I really liked the food they served. I was thrilled with clearly labelled gluten-free options. It was AWESOME. I liked the swag. It is not hard to like swag. :) I liked the parties. I like parties. I liked the session I attended. Sadly I only attended one.
There wasn't anything really bad about the trip. I feel like the hotel is kind of pricey and since they didn't do room drops this year, I would have been okay going to a cheaper hotel. (Michelle probably wouldn't have been though). I didn't like how spread out things were which required what felt like a long walk. I wish there had been more sessions I was interested in, but I know they can't please everyone. The ONE session I was interested in, I didn't make it to because I had to finish homework for my class. (which I got a 12.5 out of 12.5 on by the way).
The Hmm... The real hmm is do I go back? Next year it is New York City again. I feel like NYC was much more expensive than Chicago and San Diego. I don't think the hotel was only $199/night. And I'm just not sure. I'm not sure what I get out of it besides free stuff (which if you add up hotel, airfare etc isn't actually free per se) and hanging out with my friends. Now, it'll cost to have a girls weekend anyway and with BlogHer at least I get breakfast and lunch paid for as part of my ticket. :) (as well as parties and drinking in the evening). So far in two years I think I've attended MAYBE 3 sessions (I think only 2 actually and one Michelle was on the panel and the other I just went with Michelle). I know if I don't go, I'll feel left out since many of the girls are going again next year. And I can go and hang with Katey who doesn't go to the sessions either. We could do touristy things. (if she goes I think she's on the fence too). I dunno. I can't think that far ahead.
Monday, July 11, 2011
While watching The Piano for class tonight I realized it is the selfishness I have a horrible time with. I know, somehow, we were supposed to feel for Holly Hunter's character. In fact, the reason I was watching had to do with the Blackbeard Folk story and the husband represents Blackbeard, but the whole time I was watching the movie I thought about how awful she was to him. I'm not saying she deserved to have her finger cut off by an axe, that was horrific. But seriously, he didn't seem like a bad guy. The husband didn't do anything wrong (well, you know until he snaps and cuts her finger off with an axe, but PRIOR to that). I couldn't feel any empathy for her. I couldn't feel any empathy for Diane Lane in Unfaithful. I could never feel any empathy for Carrie when she cheated on Aiden. I couldn't feel any empathy for the gay cowboys even. This is also the reason I've never read (nor watched) bridges of Madison County or the Horse Whisperer. I started the Horse Whisperer thinking it was a story about rebuilding the horse and child's life and got annoyed... skipped to the end and put the book down never to read it again.
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
Antonio said the risks hit home when his nephew Alejandro disappeared in the Sonoran Desert around 2002. A father of one and with a pregnant wife, Alejandro had been promised work by a friend. It took years for the authorities to find his body in the arid brush south of Tucson. Even now, no one knows how he died.
“They’re identifying more with Mexico,” said Agustín Martínez González, a teacher. “With more education, they’re more likely to accept reality here and try to make it better.”
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
The other thing I bought this weekend is something that I LOVE, which means It is either discontinued or about to be discontinued. I found ziploc freezer bags that have a little way for me to suck the air out of them so they are totally sealed (looking at Ziploc's website I see that they are called vacuum bags). I do not know why I have such a terrible time with freezer burn (Ok. It is because I buy meat on sale and in large quantities and as a single person I just don't eat that much and I tend to not be so good about getting all the air out of the bag apparently), but I get a lot of freezer burn and I hate it. So far these seem to work awesomely. I'm tempted to remove from the freezer all the other meat that is in regular bags and re seal them in these vacuum bags.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
In the course of my pets as an adult (4 ferrets 1 cat) ALL 4 ferrets required adrenal shots because they got adrenal disease. This was somewhere between a $35 - $40 shot/month. Not counting the cost to get the flexcar since I was in Seattle with no car. Sam requires fancy cat food. Honestly I just want one healthy not crazy pet.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Again I find myself needing new shoes. The problem I have is threefold. 1. I have fat feet and value comfort over cute, which means I usually buy relatively bland shoes. 2. I have a large heel spur on my right heel. Which impacts size of shoes and ability of shoes like slingbacks since they don't stay up on the back of my foot. 3. I'm cheap about the wrong things. I am ok with paying more for some shoes, but if I figure I won't wear them often or more than a year I don't see the point in paying a lot for them. I seem to have missed out on the shoe shopping gene.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Friday, June 03, 2011
So I have netflix and one of the reasons I wanted an xbox was so that I could watch movies instantly through netflix. This would be fine and dandy (and to be fair I've watched a lot of tv shows via netflix which I enjoy) except the movies that are released don't get to "watch instantly status for fucking ever. Black Swan, released in March - not on Watch Instantly. Love and Other Drugs - released March 1, not on Watch Instantly yet. Takers - released in January is being advertised as a "new Arrival." (I have no interest in Takers, I'm making a point) Are you freaking kidding me? I can walk up to Redbox and get I am Number 4 (which i want to see) and get it tonight (except that means putting on clothes and driving to the store see how lazy trumps self righteous indignation). AND they've changed their policy so that I can't even click on get the disk (to get it mailed to me) because they're trying to force us to use the "watch instantly" feature. I would if they had what I wanted to watch dammit!
Unrelated to Netflix, when I play my exercise game on xbox it just shows me as my shape but in red (heat sensor actually) and it cracked me up when the cat walked around my legs, as he is wont to do when I don't want him there, and the scanner picked up his shape.
What else was I going to be pissy about... oh I typed in www.blogger.com into my toolbar. This is a legitimate site that I've used a number of times (obviously) and yet somehow yahoo search decided I did something wrong and it came up as a search result. That also annoyed me.
Oh back on netflix... I hate how 99% of their "New arrivals: Movies" are not new arrivals at all. Well MAYBE they are movies that are newly released (and obviously not NEWLY released since one of their "new arrivals" is from January) on DVD. I want a list of real new releases not stupid shit like white chicks and dane cook and a bunch of movies nobody has ever heard of. This forces me to go to another website to see if I can actually find a list of new releases (strangely difficult actually thanks to televisionwithoutpity I can actually find a list because each week they do a blog about what's new on DVD) and then search for whatever movie I want to see. They're just pissing me off tonight.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Activities for this weekend:
1 - I randomly went and saw Sucker Punch at the dollar theater. I was driving by on my way home and on a whim pulled in to see what was playing right then. Sucker Punch, I had wanted to see before, was playing at the right time so that worked out. Not bad for $1.25. Not sure how I'd feel about it if I paid $7.50 or more.
2 - I am going to 6 Flags on Saturday. I got another season pass since I think Stephan and I are going when they come in July and I think my sister and I are going to Six Flags in San Antonio Memorial Day.
3 - I want to spend my Kohl's cash this weekend and get a new pair of shoes. Or a new pair of work pants.
4 - Oh. I'm going to the rodeo Saturday night. I peeved about how ridiculously difficult it was to buy a ticket online, but I succeeded with the last card I have. I am hoping that I have fun at it.
5 - I am thinking of de-cluttering my flat surfaces. My kitchen table has become the recepticle of all things I don't know what to do with. That's not really fun, but it would make me happy to be done with that. And I would have a place to spread out arts & crap supplies.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
I'm going hiking today. I'm very excited about that. I think that since I've been going to school, I've not been on a Sunday adventure in a long time. Although this is a Saturday Adventure. They are having a hike to see the blue bonnets at the Fort Worth Nature Center where I typically go hiking. I should probably pull my water pack out of storage.
Thursday, April 07, 2011
I'm a little troubled by the parallel to earthquakes and hope to goodness that this was written before today's repeat earthquake in Japan. I'm hoping it happens, though. I need something to happen soon. (that's hopefully good).
Saturday, April 02, 2011
Friday, April 01, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Manta Ray: To dream that you or someone is attacked by a school of manta rays, indicates that emotions that have been suppressed into your unconscious are becoming too overwhelming to keep inside any longer.
That's not at all disturbing.
Friday, March 18, 2011
The good things about here: Closer to my sister. Swimming pool at my apartment. Cheaper rent. Own a car. Have a cat. (I could have done that in seattle I know). Six flags. lower cost of everything except electricity. HUGE apartment. HUGE BEAUTIFUL apartment. Cheaper than Seattle's was. Housekeeper, dishwasher, washer/dryer in unit. Seriously, people, those are beautiful things.
Unrelated to all this mumbling about being home sick, I have to find ways to cut expenses. I think after Sunday night's Big Love I'm cutting fancy cable. There's nothing ever on it I want to watch. It is pointless. I have netflix and a blockbuster card. I'll get it back when True Blood returns in the summer. :)
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
One of the harder things about moving to a new place (besides having to make new friends, don't even ask me about that at all) is finding new products and brands. I have lived on the west coast for so long the only brand of cheese I like is tilamook. I love tilamook cheese. It is very very difficult to find it here for some reason. (You know not being on the west coast and all that). However I've found something that makes me just as happy (or maybe happier)... Cabot cheese is available here! I first had Cabot cheese in Vermont visiting Katie girl (Hi Katiegirl!). I do love me some Cabot cheese and even better it is "president's choice" (the generic Kroger brand). Yay! That's a happy thing to find.
Saturday, March 05, 2011
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
We had a conversation in class the other night about ethics and information professionals. The prof said that there is some indication that Timothy McVeigh (OKC Bombing) consulted a librarian about bomb building. She asked would we give that out. I was the only one in class to say no. And my statement was more along the lines of I couldn't live with myself if I found out information I gave out had caused the deaths of people in that fashion. A couple people went down the "slippery slope" route... if you don't give out "how to make a bomb" where does it stop. We shouldn't judge what people would like to know. Blah blah blah. The ALA believes that we should provide information without judging the information being requested but there's one guy we read about who agrees with my way of thinking. You have to consider society. Someone else pointed out (or maybe it was slippery slope girl) that it would be like pharmacists refusing to give out the morning after pill. I quickly pointed out that a - pharmacists have a binding professional oath as opposed to librarians who have a voluntary oath and b - many many places have upheld that pharmacists can refuse to provide the morning after pill. (And physician's don't all have to provide abortions if they do not choose to.) Anyway, apparently I'm a dissenter in my class.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Weekly I go and volunteer at a local domestic violence shelter. I work with the kiddos while their moms are in counseling. (By work with I mean baby sit, not anything exact or psychological or anything like that). (But that's not what this post is about either) (Although recently there was a little girl there who had the most startling eyes. One was brown, deep brown so dark you could barely see the iris and the other was this brilliant cobalt blue. It was striking and if/when her unibrow gets controlled I'm sure she'll be stunning (she's only little right now).
Anyway, every time I go and come back I drive past this church that is called Hope. I like the name of that. Every time I drive past on the way home I think, hmm... I wonder if the doors are open in the evening (well night really). I can't figure out what kind of church it is. I think I just like the name Hope. It makes me think about joining. Seriously, Texas is sucking me in. Or maybe just the reality that I'm not happy with several aspects of my life and maybe something like an organized community group to join would help. When I was in Alaska I used to ask my churchgoing friends why they believed in god. Some didn't know how to respond. Several indicated that that's what their parents did so that's what they did. My favorite answer was from my roommate of the time (not Kate) who said it just made her feel better and more centered. I would like to feel more centered. Yoga just doesn't do it for me. My mind wanders. I feel stupid and uncoordinated and especially fat. Meditation makes me antsy. (Again my mind wanders and it makes me twitchy). Now that I'm in school, homework is taking over my weekends. I'm looking for something. I just don't know where to find it.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I need a pair of some heeled boots/shoes that are black. My suit pants are too long and usually I wear a pair of peep-toe pumps with them but it is 17 degrees and slushy outside and that just wasn't going to work. So I wore my suit with my black Doc Martens which means my pants dragged on the slushy ground like I'm some sort of teenager. Time to go to the Dry Cleaners.
I went on a job interview and had a talk with a recruiter at an agency today. The recruiter has 2 positions open. One I'm not interested in at all since it is for another health care group and I'm not having it again. The other, she says, is for a place that she has heard good things about from the other people who have been placed there. The downer for that one... salary lower than what I earn now. Now, to be fair I pay a lot for benefits so if their benefits are better/more covered that might be okay. The problem is, I can't really find a lot of time to interview for a lot of jobs. Don't even get me started on my boss and time issues. The other place was a manufacturer of heating & cooling units. I interviewed with the recruiter, the person who would be my boss and I was supposed to interview with the person who has the position now and one other person, but they had left early. That reassured me since I think I don't believe in not meeting the rest of the team for a job. We'll see. I think I might like it there. Their hand outs are certainly impressive. :) If this one doesn't work out I may take a little break. Stock up some more time so that I have time to interview. :)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
1. My periods have returned. I've had more periods in the last 3 months than I have in the last year. I know it is better for me. I know this is probably a good thing, but I don't have to like it. I mean really, two periods a year is a pretty good thing. It is also weird to me since I haven't had regular ones since I lived in California. That was a LONG time ago (I moved in 2002) and I'm pretty sure I haven't been over weight "y" that entire time.
2. If my measurements are correct (which they might not be I'm kind of dumb about that) I've only lost 1 inch in my waist and like 1 inch in my chest and yet like 4 - 5 inches in my b00bs. This is a problem because while my hair is still in an annoying stage, my chest is pretty much the only thing I like on my body. (Yes I recognize that's bad.)
It is almost enough to make me gain it back. ALMOST. :) But since I want to sky dive and scuba dive I'll keep going, even though this past week's food consumption has not supported that view. (I gained 1/2 a lb when I weighed myself the other day, but I can probably chalk that up to period since it started the next day).
Saturday, January 08, 2011
So then I move on to another chain grocery store. I was looking for some produce and a few of those seasoning mixes and a couple other things I couldn't get at Wal-Mart. I pick up my cucumbers, some clementines, chocolate chips (because I'm making GF fruit pies with cherry and chocolate chips, sounds good, no?), and a few other things. They don't have my seasoning packages but that's okay. (related, I know you use "Oriental" for things and items like "Oriental" rugs, but I'm still vaguely uncomfortable that that's the label they use for the Asian food section.) I see there are 2 regular lanes open with HUGE lines and the self check out is open. Wow, one is even totally open. I go and start scanning and then realize nope, someone is in the midst of shopping and apparently has stepped away. Not acceptable. So I get in line behind a woman with three candy bars. This should be quick. Nope. One of the candies is not part of the 2/something deal so she takes it back, leaving the register open but in use. Then she picks up several other things while she's away and then she can't figure out how to check out. So I try one other lane but it won't scan my cans and so I give up and put all my stuff back. I can only tolerate the ridiculousness for so long before I wanted to kick someone. I then went across the street to the other grocery store that I like better anyway and got EVERYTHING I wanted and there was no waiting at self-check out and there was no idiots who had wandered off mid-way through checking out. So all was right with the world. :)
Saturday, January 01, 2011
1 - I want to get out more. Maybe do more meet-ups. It's been 8 months and I still have nobody to hang out with and although I've dated more since moving to Texas than I have in the last 2 years of living in Seattle, I'm not interested in the minotaur so I'll not do that again.
2 - Get a new job. I hate my current job.
3 - Keep working on paying off debt. I've been trying to pay more on my cards than min payment and all that but I've gotten a little bad over the holidays. Sadly I know where my tax refund will be going this year. (Well not sadly this is good and what is necessary.)
4 - Do well in grad school. I am a slacker at heart.And a lot of this will be online/virtual class. I'd like to do well this time. (I didn't do horribly in college. I had like a 3.2 GPA but it would be cool to graduate with honors or something like that).
5 - Lose more weight. I've lost about 20 lbs so far. I can pull all of my pants down without undoing them. Before I buy new pants I want to lose more weight so I can go down 2 pants sizes and not 1. I was doing well about exercising before so I'm hoping to get back into that. If I get the job in Plano I want between that commute and the commute to the college it will get much harder to eat well and be careful about calories.
So there we go. 5 goals. They seem doable.