Don't do it. Even if you think it might be okay it isn't. After the dreams of the ex recently I decided to google him and see what came up. What came up... a page about him with a link to myspace. Of course I had to follow this through to fruition. I had begun the soul destroying, I couldn't stop. The end result. He still is hot. Maybe hotter than he was oh so many years ago. Hard to say. The other end result. He could still be a jackass and he definitely is unmotivated. Not that I require a CEO or anything but oh so many years after college he should have a degree of some sort by now. (Please notice how I don't spell out how many years oh so many is because when THAT dawned on me I contemplated how hard it would be to cause myself to spontaneously combust.)
I think this was primarily prompted by a rash of recent facebook friends updating their profiles (well and becoming my friends to begin with). Everybody I knew in college and high school has a spouse and children. Ok that's probably an exaggeration, but the ones that post a lot of updates all seem to and it is forcing me to have the oh so unhealthy dialogue of "Huh, how'd she manage to find a husband?" in my head. And they all post pictures of their kids and it is so cute and it might be making me a little bitter. So for about 10 minutes yesterday I felt sorry for myself hence the googlestalking which made me more bitter. :) Isn't that how it always works? So maybe the real lesson here is Facebook is the enemy. Ahh... yes that's the real lesson.