Uh- oh

So last night Matty and I went out drinking and dart playing... Met up with his tranny friends, had a gay old time. Hee. When I got home, I was online for awhile, but logged off thinking I was tired, but sleep wasn't happening... Not surprising, I've been having trouble with that lately, so I figured I'd have a little cherry rum and lemonade. It is yummy, and alcohol puts you to sleep, right? Right?! Damn. No lemonade. Now normal people would just give up, but you know how sometimes you get an idea in your head and it makes sense and you just HAVE to do it. Yeah, that's how it was, now I like WANT lemonade. So I throw on a pair of jeans and grab my jacket and head to QFC for some lemonade. (Is this the first sign I'm an alcoholic? :) It's raining, and I'm trudging to QFC in the middle of the night? AA here I come!) As I was coming back in, there was a person I know from the building standing outside. I've spoken to her in the laundry room a few times. Alex locked herself out, and the manager wasn't answering the door buzzer. She and I chatted in the elevator on the way to the manager's apartment – he lives across the hall from me. Anyway, he wasn't home or didn't answer the door when she knocked, so I told her she could come in and hang out with me until she could get a hold of him. It was a little weird but I might still have been a little tipsy. I think she might have noticed that, and told me to please just go ahead and do whatever I was going to do. Really it was just sitting on the sofa, drinking cherry rum lemonade and watching 50 First Dates for like the millionth time and lamenting how much my life sucks. I went inside and turned it on, but could hear her outside the door. She knocked a couple more times on the manager's door before she knocked on mine. I let her in and we plopped down on the sofa. It was kind ofweird, but you know... whatever. Turns out she has an unholy love for Drew Barrymore, too. We were just sitting there chatting and drinking cherry rum. It was kinda nice. And normal. It has been awhile since I have had a female friend just hang out. Hell it's been awhile since I've had any friend just hang out with me at my place. And then she kissed me. And I didn't know what to make of that. It took me a little by surprise (ok it took me a lot by surprise). Shockingly, I was not nearly as freaked out as I would have expected. Really. You know Michelle and Matty P have been planting the idea in my head for months... Ultimately we ended up talking and laughing and yeah a little kissing like all night. I think we dozed off at like 4:30ish. When I woke up (came to?) I looked at the clock and realized it was like 6:30 and fuck! I had to get going to get ready for work. And FUCK my head hurts! She offered to join me in the shower, but...hell no I'm not ready for that. She left to find the manager. I could hear them talking so I guess he just goes to bed early? I got ready for work. We have a date Saturday night. I don't know what the hell is happening. What did I get myself into?