I tend to get restless. Usually it coincides with one of two things... 1 - I vacation or visit or (in the case of Colorado) see a movie that is about a place and decide I'm tired of living where I do and want to move. 2 - I'm dissatisfied with my current place in my life and want to move to shake things up.
The reality is, of course, I'm too lazy and broke right now to actually move anywhere, but I'm entertaining the idea. :) By entertaining the idea, I mean I do vague searches on move.com to discover if I could afford housing in my new locale and job searches on monster.
Currently I'm suffering from a little of both scenarios. I'm just back from vacation which always makes me happy but now I want to live in Orlando, despite the fact that it is a million degrees there year round and I'll die. And I am not just satisfied with my life at the moment. I don't know why or where this is coming from. I think it is mostly because I'm stressed about my apartment (one of my neighbors complained about the 'ferret smell' and my apartment manager is now implying that I snuck them in basically) and I have a performance review at work which I'm all terrified about (for no real reason I suppose, I'm good at my job, but I have had some humdingers of reviews in the past so I've been gun shy ever since.). Both are minor annoyances and will pass but they just make me want to not be here anymore.
Currently on the list of places I want to live...
1 - Orlando (I know it is a million degrees there but if I could work for Disney I might be able to make it work)
2 - Colorado (I watched a movie... it looked pretty there and I thought that might be nice but there are no jobs for what I do and I don't want to live in Denver)
3 - California (sometimes I think about moving back there. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't like it - part of that whole once you break up with someone you don't get back together with him, but my BFF lives there with her husband and almost new baby so it would be good and I'd have friends there already.)
4 - Oregon (I love Astoria. Again no jobs in what I do there.)
I'm kind of on the fence about living in a city. On the one hand I love the freedom to walk wherever I want to and we have great public transportation. Also there are more likely to be jobs in what I currently do in bigger cities. Benefits specialists are more necessary in mid to larger companies. When I was visiting my sister all I could think was where do these people work? Where do professionals work in those areas? (She's too far from a city to be a reasonable commute I think.) On the other, I'm kind of sick of being surrounded by people at all times. And while I like the convenience factor of having everything close at hand, I kind of am tired of no wide open spaces or quiet places with no people. (Although I realize 50% of the places on my list would be cities). I also don't know why I never consider the east coast in places to live, but I don't. I know FL is on the east coast, but I mean northeast. Also I know I never consider the mid-west. I didn't like Indiana, I am now painting the entire middle of the country with that brush. :)
Ultimately I know I won't move. I don't want to go through the whole effort to make friends again. I don't want to pack all my shit up. If I were moving back to CA, for example, I would wait until the girls died because I don't want to do the owning illegal animals there again. And actually I think I would wait anyway because I don't want to move with animals this time around. So stagnation is my name. Sigh.
(This feeling shall pass. It always does. :) )
2 comments:
I tend to get restless too. That's usually when I go on a vacation - it's a great distraction.
And Indiana is the armpit of the midwest, so cut the rest of us some slack. :)
You would like Marshall, MI. It was such a cute town and they get snow in the winter.
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