Sad little brownie

Well, my fear was realized tonight. The two Brownies who didn't do any presales didn't show so it was my 4 girls who sold over 100 boxes and earned the teddy bear and the one little girl who did sell, but not over 100 boxes so no teddy bear. She looked like she was going to cry and it made me feel TERRIBLE. I so know that feeling. I think I handled the passing out of awards poorly too, but I struggle with wanting to recognize those who did well and not disinclude (ok I know not a real word) those who didn't do as well. My boss is of the type who worked her ass off and sold like 400+ boxes of cookies when she was a girl. She is all for the recognition of those who work hard for their accomplishments - capitalism. In an ideal world, all things would be equal and capitalism, pure capitalism, would work. Except, wait, it isn't an ideal world so in some aspects it doesn't... otherwise how could we explain how professional ball players, movie stars and ah nevermind, I'm tired of this thought process. I'm tired of nothing on TV. I can't believe it is 8:30 at night and I'm contemplating going to bed already.