Out of anxiety. I've put in the home loan paperwork to start the approval process. Nothing has to come of it. I don't have to take out the loan if I don't find anything, or if I can't find anything or if I freak the fuck out and must back away very quickly and return to my noncommital, don't own anything life. Already every cell in my body is screaming call them and say nevermind!
Edit: Well, apparently I'm not so easy that they can do the stuff online and let the computer make the decision. A real person has to decide. So, I didn't get like an insta-approval. However, I have been looking at little places online and the part of me that isn't completely freaking out is a little intrigued. But mostly I'm freaking out.