Last night, or this morning, I had a very vivid dream in which I was teaching again. I was trying to give one of those big standardized tests but the kids just would not be quiet. It was a mixture of kids I actually taught, kids I went to school with and kids who went to the school I taught at but I never taught. I remember there was an announcement over the PA system and then for some reason I remember opening the classroom door and being outside in a huge green meadow kind of like the one on the backdrop for the standard desktop config for Windows XP. So going with the big themes:
Teacher: To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, it may relate to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test. But I was the teacher so does that change things does one think?
Classroom: To dream that you are in a classroom, symbolizes that you may be learning an important life lesson. And that is people suck??
Classmates: To see old classmates in your dream, indicates that you need to draw on your old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.
Exam: To dream that you are taking an exam, signifies insecurities, fear of not meeting others' expectations, and fear of failure.
Children: To see children in your dream, signifies your own childlike qualities or a retreat back to a childlike state. It is an extension of your inner child during a time of innocence, purity, simplicity, and a carefree attitude. You may be longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.
Meadow: To see a meadow in your dream, represents openness and security. You are taking time out to appreciate your accomplishments.
So clearly work anxiety is filtering its way through my brain while I'm sleeping. Even if I get boss's job, I'm terrified I'll fuck it up and all this drama will be for naught. Perhaps the past lesson I've learned and am relearning (and because I'm naive and look for the good) is that people aren't all good and wonderful like I believe them to be. Ok good & wonderful might be a big stretch, but you know, I do tend to try to find the good in people rather than the bad. One of my favorite quotes is from Lincoln, although I originally heard it in the movie Pollyanna (by yes my house of worship Disney). "If you look for the bad in people expecting to find it, you surely will." Anyway... apparently hopefully the meadow means things will work out in the end right? :)