I did it, I backed out. I couldn't be the lead for First Hill. I feel guilt about pulling out, but I had to do it. I couldn't bear the thought of being the lead. There's a reason this is the Summer of Joanne. I'm tired. I need this break. I know I do it to myself. September 17th I start volunteering again. It's our Day of Caring at the college and I take a group of freshmen and we spend the day volunteering. Until then, I'm taking it easy and visiting museums and parks and sleeping late and reading long long books.